I, on multiple occasions, told Gary I was always going to work, that I went to school too long and worked too hard to be where I'm at to not work. Even when we're older and I hopefully don't have to work, I always said I would. Well, I'm not older and I do have to work to make ends meet but now I don't want too. Don't get me wrong, I am fortunate. I am one of the few people that can say I do love my job, but I LOVE spending time with Natalie more!! My Mom told me before Natalie was born that this would happen, you would think after 27 years I would have learned to listen.
Why the rant about work you ask? Well this past Tuesday was my first day back at work. I am blessed that I went back part time, dropping from around 50 hours a week to 28-30 hours which is certainly a plus. But that is still 30 hours away from my little one. This week my Mom came out to watch Natalie on Tuesday and Wednesday. This really helped ease my transition back to work. I was not worried about Natalie at all, I knew she was in great hands! Mom tried very hard to keep Natalie on her regular schedule and she did a wonderful job! Thanks mom! Therefore, I survived Tuesday and Wednesday rather well. The girls at work made me take a picture on my first day back to put in Natalie's baby book. I wasn't allowed to smile, but it almost looks like I'm crying!
Thursday was when the tears came, and they came often! Thursday morning I had to drop Natalie off at her first day of daycare. I had been dreading this day before she was even born. I have nothing against daycares, particularly the one we chose, I think it is great for the kids to get out and socialize. And U-Gro, where she is going is such a nice, clean daycare with very caring and friendly ladies working there. It is still hard to drop off your daughter and hand her to a another woman who doesn't know what Natalie likes, doesn't know her routine and isn't able to provide her the one on one care that you can at home. Plus it meant more time when I wasn't with her. I bawled when I left daycare, I bawled when the first person at work asked me about her, and I bawled a few more times throughout the day. Luckily I only worked till noon. When I picked her up she had done fine- she had taken her bottle well, she took a nap and she wasn't crying, whew what a relief. Lets just hope it gets easier on Mom. For now I will enjoy my Monday off with her. I may be biased but she is just the best thing in this world!
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